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Let Go Your Worries!

Learn from the beasts from the outside world! The special way for them to survive is to killing each other that blocked their way, knowing their enemies’ weakness and ambushed them at the right time, learn not to bother and learn not to care, just care for its own! The strongest will stay, the weakest will go! This could be another way to get away from depression is learn not to care, not to feel, and pretended nothing happened! Learn not to be deeply in love or attached to anything, when it gone you wouldn’t feel deeply in pain! Hard like a Steel and cold like an iceberg!

Life always experiences some setbacks and there's plenty of stress to go around. Doctors can’t help us as negatives filled among us! It always exists whether you like it or not! In the end, they all will say think of positive side! And take your hard earned money away! No one will help! Help yourself!

Stop holding a grudge against something for so damn long – Only if I lost my memories! Get away from suffering and pain, is to learn to let it go! – Do you mean die! Love your body, love yourself – What for, in the end till ruined, cut up and take photos some more! No privacy at all! Learn to forget the past and focus on the future! – What future this day! Learn to prepare myself mentally for some disappointment if I opened up my mind – Yup, if it commonly happened, nothing to feel shock anymore! Learn to feel nothing at all! Talk to someone I trust that can help to clear up my negative thoughts – Who? Who will be a good listener and good adviser! None! Reduce the amount of stress in my life, don't try to do everything myself! – But no one share how! Die! Take a break to sort out my thoughts, nursing my broken heart! – Yup, only the dead can take a break with no pain anymore! Pick up some hobbies that will keep me more fully engaged with the world – But my hobbies need to pay! I easily hurt but recover easily if there is encouragement and support – True to me, somehow. Pure and innocent like a child.

Good thing is I know who stand by me when I fall sick or fell into very deep depression even after I had a relapse, as I can see certain people in a much clearer now. Same family related kin or friends may end up be strangers or enemies! Strangers act to be sneakers doing nothing just take a peek or rob your ideas, or ambushed you at the right time. Or just act as pretenders for any purposes, or act to be judges, judged you by the cover of a book and not reading completely of you. This is good way to test on humanity and a way to test true friend is!

A dream had told me just let the nature take its course. If there’s sunny after I died, mean I had gone to a place, a heaven I had dreamed for long. If there’s rain after I died, mean I till remained in these world of hell! But, what if the nature does not take its course at all? What that noise, I haven’t finished my dream yet!


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